here we go again

every few days or weeks or months i go through periods of super-concentrated, independent, creative productivity. then, after however many days or weeks or months of that, comes another however many days or weeks or months of, well, nothing. i think this is normal. but it's always so awkward and overwhelming sitting down and trying to do work after such a hibernation. i think the thing that i always forget is how much patience it takes. in real, non-creative life its easier to make yourself do things (even though it's still not always easy) because stuff like chores or errands are usually pretty instantly gratifying. if you go grocery shopping then you have a full refrigerator, if you do the dishes then you've got an empty sink, if you take a shower then you're clean. its so simple! but when you sit down to "make something" who knows how many hours (or days or weeks or months) it'll be before it turns into anything at all, or if it even will turn into anything. but i'm not complaining. i actually like the process. it just seems like such a crazy expulsion of energy to from time to time participate in this reorientation. and to have to remind myself again not to be expecting some polaroid-style satisfaction.

also

i decided today that walking is my favorite hobby

i got back from japan a little over a week ago. i've spent the past week being hardly employed and taking advantage of living in new york. there is nothing like traveling somewhere really foreign to make you feel really competent when functioning at home. its nice feeling like a genius just because you actually understand the subway system really well.

here are some highlights:
after we got there we took the train to kyoto for the weekend
and found this photoand this one
missing thing: Its hard to find.
travel: No problem.
back to the big city




this past thursday i rode to prospect park
and was reminded that next i'd really like to go to paris.

i'm going to japan today.

a question

joan and i were talking about this for some reason the other day and i'd really like to gain some clarity. ok, so when people talk about 'the second coming of jesus', what does that mean exactly? he was a great human then he died, and then he came back and that's why everyone loves him, right? did he go somewhere after that? because doesn't saying 'the second coming' imply that he went somewhere? but then if he went somewhere, who is everyone so in love with?

seriously, i'm curious.

the most i've ever known about cars

its a cake. patti and i made it.